In the black/dark.

Tomorrow's paycheck might put me at my guesstimated budget for the trip I have planned next year! To California and back to Texas for a handful of JM shows with the best tickets I can get my hands on to all of the above ... assuming there's an album sometime in our future.

Being the most impatient person I know is definitely taking its toll in almost all the facets of my life right now. I'm bored but anxious because I can't do anything but wait ... for Battle Studies, for an admissions decision, for the rest of my life.

Isn't it sad? I feel like I'm running out of time and opportunities, and I'm only 20. It's been a while since I've found myself in such a bout of pessimism, and Indiana's a terrible place to be when you need to be distracted ... which I do.

Guess moving will keep me busy at least until I start my new job, where I will earn the remaining (already promised) chunk of funding necessary for 2010 tour festivities! (Nice segue, no? John said himself, "It always comes around, back to me.") Just not looking forward to schlepping my life around and not knowing how long I'll be feeling nebulous.

Vague enough? Good.